Blog post written by Shannon

So what now?

Over 2 years out where do I go from here?

Am I recovered? Am I sick? Am I over all of this?

I think a bit of all three

My body is healed

My brain is getting there

I think there is being sick, living in treatment and living outside of treatment

I think there is recovery from recovery as well

Learning to not necessarily forget those long 8 years

But to put them in a bag under your bed, know they are there but also understand that its okay to not need them anymore

Recovery is a hard word for me to understand.

What constitutes it?

Will I always be so mean to myself?

Is that just a norm that society has dictated?

I don’t believe in one definition of recovery

So I created my own.

Days without staring contests with my food or the clock

Ice cream for dinner

Long lazy days in bed

Good night sleeps

Pizza with extra cheese

Facemasks

Lots of water

Bubble baths

Then I am recovered

Maybe not all in one day, maybe only a few times a week,

But I created my own new normal life

Where I applaud myself for things that are so mundane but are WINS for me.

So what now?

I take it day by day, sometimes minute by minute

And will continue to practice the amazing power of Self love and positive thoughts.